I didn t have a childhood reddit If you plan to go into the trades you can make more money than some majors. I had thought she was much cleverer than me in childhood, but she had not I got into smoking weed when I was 15 and hard drugs at 16, in an attempt to feel something. 😋 I had a pretty non-traditional and difficult childhood and so I didn’t get It isn't that I didn't have some wonderful highlights in childhood, memories I will treasure forever You couldn't pay me to repeat childhood. The things you didn't experience when you were young are still going to be new experiences to you now. Since my dad knows my BPD mom and lived through her abuse for 16 years he was able to understand (not fully but 60%). When I looked back during therapy, it was clear as day to me. Hated the other kids for being too childish, hated the lack of autonomy, hated being told what to do by incompetent adults. But you still have to have some childhood symptoms. She said she didn’t think I needed to go looking for additional trauma because the emotional neglect is trauma enough. Most common time to end childhood is age 13 as that is when you become a teenager, but again, it is not a fact that childhood ends at age 13. Didn't enjoy my childhood, don't want to relive it. It was simple and innocent, but as I was progressing to adulthood it was apparent there was large gaps in what my parents should have provided or taught me, the outcome made me behind the 8-ball on some levels. I didn't like other kids This subreddit is an homage to the shitposting grandmasters that have resulted in Wizard Poker's self-hating Reddit-centric community outjerking other game When I was younger I didn't have many friends, and those friends that I did have we're shitty and didn't treat me with respect. 23 years later we got married. Once you have a Bachelors no one cares you did 2 years at a CC first. Growing up, did you ever feel that your efforts to please others were never enough? Did your parents tell you that your feelings were wrong? Did you think that love was In the end, I realized that the reason why I don't have any real close childhood friends is because I didn't feel much of a connection to them in the first place. I wish I didn’t look down on my parents. I didn't get invited to my childhood best friend's wedding, And we were even talking; not for like 5 months because she didn't call me to wish on my birthday while she uploaded a story of how she was busy talking to her fiancé and her going to be MIL. Not able to find my childhood friends cause we didn't have any social media in those days and now i really can't remember enough about them to conduct a proper search haha However, i have kept in touch with 2 of my friends from junior high, one of my signs were more noticeable during puberty, but i'm just going to list them all so i could share them with you all~ during my childhood i used to play a LOT of flash games, mainly platformers and dress up games, even though i used to deny my love for the latter, and feminine stuff in general then (i'd play more character creation games than actual dress up games cuz i was She brought her child and I had children of my own which made it extra difficult. I've been planning since childhood. You have so many experiences ahead of you but just remember everyone moves at their own pace. That identity crisis has to be pretty brutal. now I’m feeling that again. I didn't remember anything that happened at home. She mentioned she was glad she hadn't heard me having one of my nightmares But wherever I've gone: my elementary school, my magnet middle school, or my IB high school, I feel like I've never really fit in (switching school systems 3 twice didn't help). So much happier to be living as an adult and making my own decisions! Friends would not understand how I couldn't have a conversation while sitting and not pacing. Exactly. My parents were just too self-absorbed that there wasn't enough attention left for me. That’s when I realised I had to forgive and let go. 3K votes, 334 comments. Because her death made my life significantly happier and healthier in some ways. My nonexistent childhood has caused struggles in my adult life that seem insurmountable. So yeah. He said his mother liked to read or watch TV, so she didn't pay a lot of attention to the kids. I talked about this with my therapist. I didn’t have any jw friends when I was a kid. After that, I had to get used to living at home with a limited friend set. It can drive Needless to say I didn’t have many, but there were some that always stuck around ever since childhood that i had managed to not completely push away. Children don't have that. One of the cool things about I'm pretty academically/career motivated because I have nothing else to strive for but honestly I feel like it just isolates me. probably from not having a dad As someone who did not enjoy high school you didn't miss much. Here’s a perspective from someone who made that choice and now isn’t so sure it was the right one. Anyways, it’s not ideal having no social media (aside from Reddit I guess), but there’s pros and cons to both. I did have some adverse childhood experiences (I forget what my ACES score is—I should check again). To make up for it, while we were at school, my mom made up tickets to that night's game and money for us to "spend". I don’t remember much of my childhood (I have PTSD from childhood), but I think there were a few months were I didn’t speak to my family at all when I was around five years old. Putting literally everything off until the last minute, doing everything right and still being completely unable to focus, random and extreme fatigue the moment I sat down to do something I didn’t want to do - I didn’t realize how not normal that sort of thing was until I saw that not My mother didn’t have food in the house when my brother and I were living with her. like riding bikes with my dad or getting herself into the most stupid, but funny situations as One night i got brave and texted him that i liked him, and within 2 years we were married. While the loud siblings get all the attention. The friendship fell apart when we went travelling together in our late teens. Had she outlived my dad, she would have made my life a living hell when I didn't let her move in. Or check it out in the app stores but it did affect me that I didn't have that. Us folks at reddit ultimately can't tell. Hurtful, cruel, rude, disrespectful, or "trolling" comments will be removed (along with any replies to these comments) and the offending party may be banned, at the mods' discretion, without warning. I personally also had adult traumas that compounded my childhood traumas so that was lovely too Girl do it! Tell him how you feel. I never told anybody because who wants to tell your friends that you can't hang out or get your license or really have any kind of growing freedom because your parent sucks ass. I have childhood friends that I might not see or talk to at all in any given year. my siblings and i experienced different levels/kinds of trauma, so my memories up to age 12 got lost as too traumatic to hold onto, while my siblings Because my hands were on the railing, I didn't have time to bring them around the railing to break my fall. I kept having this dream that I really had to pee. Reddit has made it clear they will replace moderators if they remain private. I’d learned to say no, have boundaries and have other friends - she hated that and stopped talking My dads side of the family wasn’t local, so I never really got to know them. Even when everything else sucked, we knew we had each other’s backs. I was pretty chill and good in school, never had any issues with paying attention to my teachers. We were both single and didn't have kids. I thought it was all my fault and that the other kids didn't seem to have a problem with basic life stuff. Also I almost came at 16 and then got nervous because I didn't really have any signs. Came back to visit in my mid 30’s and apparently did not pay the last payment of a DUI fine (less than a 100 dollars US) and had two Sherrif’s waiting for when getting off the plane and went straight to jail. I told my grandma that it was a secret and that I didn't want to go to hell. She controlled most aspects of my life. For me it was because I lost the structure and purpose of school. mother_of_squid I didn't have the best childhood, but at least it wasn't my own decisions that's causing it Get the Reddit app Scan this QR code to download the app now. 8 years old. Doesn't mean you're a bad person, but a lack But wherever I've gone: my elementary school, my magnet middle school, or my IB high school, I feel like I've never really fit in (switching school systems 3 twice didn't help). Despite all that I somehow repressed (I describe it as ‘refused to confront or actively remember’) the sexual aspect of the abuse in my childhood, retained the other parts, and didn’t fully recover the memories of the childhood SA until my early 20s I didn’t have a childhood. I was 13 and wanted to be 11 etc. The only logical explanation to my ignorant child mind. That’s why I though you might find it beneficial. If you didn't have autism symptoms as a child and then suddenly started having them as an adult, you're not autistic. But looking back, I just feel so much grief. In a sense, yes. You're right that some social issues have improved since then, which is good, but you didn't mention economic issues. We never could afford it. I feel I was still on the "earlier" end to lose a parent. Edit: I should say siblings SHOULD look out for each other. Yes I count that fractional year) Yes, I recently read something about the lost child. One got a scholarship to Wake Forest and tried out for the NFL and that didn't work out so he got an MBA and works at Office Depot corporate now. I didn't figure that part out until just 23 months ago. So I’m honestly confused about why my gf is upset that I didn’t say good morning to her today (9am), these past 2 weeks I understand she’s busy in the morning so I wouldn’t bother her and she was fine with me hitting her up a lil later than usual. i see how my sister (born in 1999) had so many memories from her childhood. There’s no way in hell im letting that little dude feel what being that hungry was like again. My middle kids has depression and low self esteem. Didnt realise how much it affected me til I realised everytime I hear someone laugh I'm worried they're laughing at me, and I started my first permanent job at 28 and was put in a classroom situation and ended up panicking that people didn't like me and we're saying things behind my back that I told a guy in my class to let me know if he didn't I had a similar childhood to your girlfriend. Was close friends with my man for years and fell in love with him without even realizing it and I took a risk and mailed a letter telling him how I felt about him, didn’t hear from him for a couple days after that and then he finally reached out one day and asked to see me and he confessed that he felt the same way about me too and we have been in a This is something I feel like I missed out on that everyone else got to experience. Practice! it might be uncomfy at first but it can get better with practice :) I find structure and baby steps help. If that was the best thing someone ever did with their life, they didn't have a great life. Childhood doesnt have a fixed range. The GED gets you in the door. I have always been very much isolated in my own world since childhood. But when I got to high school, I parted ways with her because our values didn’t align anymore. Forgiveness didn’t mean it didn’t happen or that it was acceptable. I didn't know why. I also didn't invite the majority of my first cousins to my wedding. now that you’ve cleaned up, you do have some new special mementos to bring She didn't want to me to move out or have friends or a partner (despite telling me often as a kid of "how much I was a nuisance"). To this day I take my brother to go get food any chance I can. I’m in a similar boat. My dad was objectively a bad father and my mom tried her best but raising 4 boys with an unhelpful/asshole husband in poverty didn't help. I crave independece and my freedom. My back-up plans have contingency plans. I basically was only loved by my grandma, my cousin, and my mother who worked hard and commuted for 90% of her life. When I came back it went downhill very quickly. Or check it out in the app stores Didn’t have a traumatic upbringing. My kids didn't come out unaffected either. I quit the job because my boss not only did not sympathize with the emotional effect the events had in me, she essentially said if I didn’t get my shit of ether it would effect That goes for a lot of ideas and concepts. A recurring thought I had when I was about 7, is that this evil mummy was going to come out of my nintendo ds and kill my family if I got up to pee in the middle of the night and didn’t physically check if they were alive. My nonexistent childhood has caused struggles in my adult life that I used to think that I just had a particularly bad childhood but I'm coming to realise that it just wasn't a childhood at all. ipso facto aside, i have been diagnosed with a handful of trauma related disorders outside of ADHD and my childhood amnesia appears to be extended to include childhood years up to 12 bc of trauma. Due to circumstances I didn't have any baby pictures. My parents were amazing at providing for us. He didn't see him a lot. 25-30 was a lot of figuring out adulting. Im 37 now and have honestly enjoyed my 30s the most. I realized only in the last couple of yearsin my early 30s that my parents not validating my feelings led to my anxiety becoming much worse. He's not on the hook for any child support, but I think it really bothered him for a long time. I didn’t get professional help until my mid-20s. Our son didn't sleep all night until he turned 3 years old. I know that so many have so much trauma from childhood, and I wish they hadn’t. Trauma does exist but it is extremely overused. And with true friends, that doesn't matter. (Transitioned at 21. There were only two other kids in our hall who were my age. Same here. I wanted it, but what I got might have been better. None of my early childhood drawings were saved and the few drawings that I made as a teenager that I do have, were the ones I kept and moved with me when I moved out. Ended up moving across the country to be part of the kid's life, but the mom decided her son didn't need a father and she ended up taking off. com] Our moms went to church together and we were the only 2 teen age pregnancies of their era. when I was 3 I went to stay with my father, who had just had my brother (who also has ADHD and ASD) when I returned home I didn't speak for 2-3 weeks. It was so embarrassing. They held every penny against me. Your childhood can be both/and and doesn’t have to be either/or. Which explains why I didn't feel that way with my ex girlfriend. ("I didn't mean that, I didn't say that" etc). I didn’t realize how brainwashed I had been, how numbed I was from the pharmaceutical drugs. I didn't like being a kid. I’m in early 20s. It’s just for me personally, when I started with the “I wishes” I tended to go on and on until my heart broke and I felt helpless. true. They were holocaust survivors so they were given a lot of leeway in terms of being weird/broken, which is understandable, but that doesn't mean it didn't damage me to be the focal point of basically the walking dead. Life is 99% mental. sibling age, house, any pictures I have). Is this a I didn’t have a childhood. She punished him because it destroyed me to see him get hurt. Siblings gotta look out for each other. Granted, I was doing nothing and wasn't feeling good. The worst thing you could have done is withheld information from the VA about your childhood trauma and having them finding out later. Wages aren't rising to meet the rising costs of living, and haven't in a while. My sister didn't care for me at all unless it was getting me in trouble. So many Get the Reddit app Scan this QR code to download the app now. They didn’t know as much in the 80s and 90s. Wealth inequality has spiked drastically. I decided since I didn't have much of a past to speak of, I'm going to make my future something to be proud of. People drift apart in adulthood and you don't get a say on who is invited or not. How much I didn't feel like I fit in at school. I spent time with relatives a lot, they were amazing people, very evolved for their times, without children of their own, very cultivated, a great model of how to live life. And a lot of my childhood is blank. "» [Oxygen. I feel sad that I never got to experience a healthy childhood and that I was shut down with drugs by the people who were supposed to care for me. My dad was upset he didn’t realize my mom had gotten worse since he was with her. It took me a long time to become comfortable with the concept of being hugged or being touched lovingly, outside of sex. I didn't have bad parents- I don't agree with their beliefs or what I was taught, but they were kind. I had a lot of traumas and honestly I didn’t resolve most and have a major impact on my mental health until I was 23, and that’s taken years to work upon further It takes a lot to get over childhood trauma, but she needs to take the steps. While we could still somewhat talk and laugh together, we really had nothing in common. We had to move to cheaper apartments. I didn’t realise how controlling she was. i was born in 2006 so i basically grew up with iphones and now i’m starting to regret it. "I'm not a murderer" isn't really a great advertisement. I didn’t have much of a childhood after a point while still at home with nmom, so I made up for it in my 20s. That’s awesome. Understanding the complexities of childhood experiences and their impact on adult life is a nuanced process. What I mean by that is that I think the abuser made us behave sexually towards one another. So easy to get caught up in all the divisions that are created to keep us from achieving more together as a unified world, but then we read stories like this, and resonate with so many different funny memories, and really, we have all at one point been a bunch of young tikes who was curious I definitely have a lot of the symptoms going on right now that i can identify in myself but when they asked about childhood—honestly i can't remember much of my childhood but I don't think i had the same symptoms back then. I accept that I didn't have a good This is Reddit's very own solution-hub. I couldn't articulate my feelings and they didn't take the time to listen to me, so I would lash out and cry because I felt helpless in expressing myself. I think this method of once a week will help me have balance. You still can have a valid claim for Burned my christmas presents from other people (she didnt get me anything that year) and just other really shitty things. Then one day I had a conversation with my mom that really kind of shook me. One was kind of an arrogant little shit and even my mother didn’t like him. When I was a kid I had various negative things happen in my childhood/teens (death, mild neglect, mild abuse). Future husband didn't get the memo for another like 7 years. You have every right to feel sad, mad, overwhelmed, and any other feelings that surface. My dad is even a psychiatrist and didn’t recognize my symptoms. Been married 5 years have had 2 kids in that time He said that the reason he didn't try to come onto me when we started hanging out again was because he wanted to respect that I had always told him no before. I also never liked movies about a forbidden romance between a straight couple,but recently I've been watching things like heartstopper and I love them like there's no tommorow. I imagine it felt like "just how life is". Then I lost my job, so we moved into my grandma's house. I wish I had a normal childhood, I wish the voices in my head didn’t mimic the voice of my judgmental alcoholic depressed mother. Yeah I was going to say like I'm still good friends with people from my comp, and my best mate is a friend from primary school, I've moved away and gone to uni and made other friends along the way but I still meet up with friends from school maybe like 6 times a year even though we all have kids and live around the country, don't know why that would be unhealthy. I can directly picture full scenes from my childhood. You don’t have to love them bc you’re genetically similar. She expects me now to look after her in her "old age" (even tho she's not even that old). I was in survival mode throughout, left to fend for myself. If your family sucks though, fuck those people. Work didn't provide the same scaffolding because I could easily stay in school, and did decently well, but I had so much trouble finding and keeping a job. Most websites say that most depression comes from having a bad childhood. I’m certain that she had/has untreated PCOS and, watching her, I can There was still an offline life, no smartphones until mid 07 so most people didn’t have them. But she certainly didn't view me as a child back then either. I've also felt like I've been missing out on a normal childhood. We loved watching baseball games and I wanted to go to a game so bad. Her other son was robbed by his cheating girlfriend, so he stole a gun and shot her in the face and went to jail for attempted murder (she didn't die. Like i had this long time feeling now I’m like oh fuck. For months afterwards, I wet the bed. I have personally been doing it TOO much and my inner child is coked up on fruit snacks and hates doing work 😥😥😥. I used to want to go back in time as a kid, i was 10 and wanted to be 5 before trauma lol. From early childhood my parents were constantly passive aggressive and bitter that I didn't have a job. I left the US (resident alien and family are all citizens now) at early 20’s. My life wasn't abusive and I wasn't neglected, but I didn't have much support. For me, I think it was largely a function of the responsibilities I have as an adult and all of the ways my childhood trauma has made functioning as an adult difficult in ways that I didn't have to worry about as a child. I have always been very shy and insecure about myself, because I felt like I didn’t get the help I needed as a child, and it leaves me feeling very empty and lonely inside. I was diagnosed at 14 but didn’t start taking it seriously until I was 23. If our parents weren’t going to take care of us we would take care of each other. But. I thought it was so cool that this kid didn’t have a phone but felt empowered to approach a safe-looking stranger and problem-solve. When I got my first job interview my mom made me an hour late on purpose and my dad acted similarly. How much shame I felt. I struggled with anxiety for most of my childhood and adolescent years. Reply reply More replies. Talking to him as an adult it was like he had a lightbulb moment and started listing things I did as a child. This isn't easy now and it won't be in the future. Their are 2 main types of memory. From what I’ve read, Bundy did not have a good childhood. My parents divorced when I was less than a year old. HOWEVER, in my uneducated opinion, I do agree that sometimes therapy is overly focused on childhood. My youngest eats to calm her crippling anxiety. But it doesn't mean you cant bring those experiences to your time now. I am living the life I For a long time my only memories were of school. I didn’t figure it out until I went to college and lived 24/7 with people who didn’t have ADHD. Otherwise my parents didn't care of clicking a single photo of my childhood. I thought that everyone struggled to tell when memories happened, but apparently it's a trauma thing. It seems like most people had a person they looked up to and were inspired by, someone they wanted to be just like. I'm in the same boat as you: trans, abusive/neglectful parents, mourning the loss of a "real" childhood. I look at my high school friends who hung out You could be suffering from C-PTSD or a host of other problems as a result. And didn't work on my social skills as much. But mostly, I plan. His mother was extremely mentally ill, he grew up ignored and isolated, started drinking at an extremely young age, had no parental supervision, suppressed I have so many memories with my siblings that highlight my childhood with streaks of happiness and togetherness. 1 GPA because I didn’t attend class and I lost out on the remaining experience with my friends. If I didn't, the non existent rope attached to me might get stuck and mess with my ability to continue. I was kicked out of school. I have children of my own now, and I don't want them to experience the same thing. One thing that I know didn’t help was that I had a mom who didn’t model anything close to effective self-care or coping mechanisms when I was a kid. And she did let the grandparents take over some of the child-rearing. The website also has tons of info. It didn’t just help me understand myself, it helped me understand everyone around me, my abusers, my friends, etc. Holy crud guys. I want to talk about something personal. But it just seems to be getting worse and worse. My moms side of the family was pretty small and all lived nearby so I saw them on the weekends. Didn’t expect silver I actually didn’t realize it till last year but it was a creeping feeling. I find myself very much in this term. Cognitive behavioral therapy would be focused less on this than psychotherapy (eta: because it’s focused on tools for coping rather than unpacking your psyche) Get the Reddit app Scan this QR code to download the app now. Childhood girlfriend, childhood best friend made me realise I was gay. I know it's fucked up, but they just didn't really survive Germany, even if their bodies escaped. The nurse didn’t answer her phone and I sprained my ankle running down the stairs. I wish people didn’t look down on my parents. Growing up I didn't realize how poor we were. That's a painful realization, honestly, because I worry about the possibility of growing old with no one to care about me, but I really just don't think that it would be possible for me to give someone else a healthy childhood. Everything of my childhood that I didn't take with me back then is now lost. I'm interested to know who really did have a hard childhood, grew up poor, was homeless, dealt with difficult situations, and basically wasn't a nepo baby at all? EDIT - I'm aware that having money doesn't necessarily mean someone didn't have a hard childhood. I regularly have arguments with my mom where I remember the full conversation, how I felt, where I was, and she claims she didn't say one particular line. they were out of sight and you didn’t even know they were there. It stood to reason that I was just a pathetic loser. Dude, I'm at 29, and if I just met a strange guy your age who said he didn't have any friends, I would probably steer clear. You can experience you missed, now, if you choose. Like I didn't even realize how lonely and neglected I was. maybe you could join a Many young people are deciding not to have children. I didn't mind until my child started to ask Now that I'm in my 20's, I regret not doing more growing up, like participating and going to dances or finding a hobby. I did not have a happy childhood but I wouldn't say I am traumatized from it. 1. Also, his grandfather was apparently physically abusive and a racist. I used to be so carefree and was always laughing. I have new friends now that are kind and fantastic people, but I can't help but think that a large part of my life has been wasted and that I could have been much more confident and better in social situations. He knew something was wrong when I I have always been the bookish, curious, "I can see through your [excrement]" person I am today. You actually have to do It didn't help that she never had a car with up to date plates, so I rarely did anything with anybody unless I was able to do it myself. I have a few "lifetime plans," that I have been working forever. You need to stop apologizing and feeding into it. For eg. This was twenty years ago and at the time I didn't know I had been abused and neglected. I knew the way I was treated wasn't right, but I was gaslit by my abusive step mother. My eldest is in love with someone with complex childhood trauma and I'm seeing the issues in his relationship mirror mine and his moms. After I grew up, I started gifting all my closest friends and family. She couldn't be prouder. I'm so sorry man. I didn't know what was happening. Good luck, keep going. His wife I could tell didn’t understand. She didn't even have the time to wish on my birthday. If my shoes became untied at any time at school, I'd be extremely upset because my mom had to be the one that tied then for me. I have a severely deficient autobiographical memory (not due to trauma or anything, just a quirk of the human condition), which means I pretty much have like 10 memories from my entire childhood (up to probably 15/16 years old) , and even those are half from memory and half having heard the I remember being grossed out because although I didn't exactly know what "fucking" was I knew that it was a dirty, private thing that sent you to hell. I realized I have been unconsciously doing this. I had a true best friend and everything was just hilarious. For how much I didn't even feel like a person. But I didn't have any siblings. The quiet child who doesn't cause problems, who raises himself. One friend lost her mom at 18, it was hard being around friends who hadn't because most of them didn't "get" it. I have pretty bad intrusive thoughts thanks to my OCD, but as a child I was convinced that some of mine were 100% real. He didn’t learn that the woman he thought was his sister was actually his mother until he was older and was raised to believe his grandparents were his actual parents. I landed HARD on my tailbone, bruising it. I took a year off but had bills to pay, so I went back to work. So much so that I have a highly detailed paracosm with characters who have been with me since early childhood. For what it's worth though, I didn't identity these issues as trauma-related until I was in my late twenties. But my stepmom all she talks to me about is when I’m leaving. 5, 10, 20 years later, do you really think anyone cares who won the big game that You may have missed your time. He seemed like a nice kid but ended up He didn't find out until the kid was a couple of years old. I didn’t realize it was severe escapism from severe Honestly, this could be a word for word description of my childhood, just add a splash more hyperactivity. I battle with the feeling that something is missing something that I will never find in my adult life. My shitty childhood would have been unbearable if I didn’t have my sister. A big part of why I didn’t get help is the people in my life didn’t recognize that what I was struggling with was anxiety. When I had my daughter I realized how absolutely fucked up the whole situation was. She validated for me that what I have experienced is causing me to feel the way I do. Even something benign could have caused worry for a child if they didn’t understand. It can end anywhere from when you turn 10 to when you turn 13 or when you turn 18 if you are counting the time until you finish secondary school. If she didn't, I was sure something bad I don't remember crying about this. It didn't make a difference to me though, it never helped. The fridge was only full when she had her boyfriends around. But I'm working on myself, which is huge. That is when I think the abuse first happened. This is not good when she has an audience of 275,000 subs as of me writing this. If you have any questions about it, feel free to DM me. I didn’t like to hug my friends or say I Just be honest about the inservice event and don’t worry about the childhood part. Why couldn't I have gone to normal schools, and done normal fun things that kids do (at least more often)? I normally have an amazing memory. I honestly find it so weird the fact that my siblings were kinda going through the exact thing I was, but ended up as far as I know, fine. The only thing I will say, she tried really hard to make up for it with video games and electronics and etc. If you’d asked me when I was 15 if I thought my childhood was traumatic, I would have laughed and said no. When I was a kid I figured I needed to suck it up and take care of myself, but I didn't know how and was too insecure. Reason they give is they didn't had camera back then on the other hand my 5 year elder brother has tons of childhood photos clicked from rented camera also lfrom photo studios. She didn’t punish him to make him hate me. My childhood was stolen by emotionally, physically and sexually abusive parents. Inshort absolutely no early signs whatsoever. So I’ve been having a lot of ups and downs, and I realize I have been suffering from childhood emotional neglect. Since I didn't have a safe happy space to go home to I didn't take as much social risks out in the world. It would have been totally unacceptable to be as openly and violently misogynistic and racist as people make millions being now. The largest transfer of wealth to billionaires just occured during covid. I wish my parents hadn’t scarred me before I ever had a chance. 100%. But it can be really hard to piece it all together. I didnt have an overly abusive childhood (there was a few years of hell), but the early part was a really poor childhood. I had a happy childhood. I was a little girl in the 90’s/early 2000’s and have been down a rabbit hole recently watching all the little nostalgic IG reels and stuff, and have been really drawn to things like the Babysitters Club show, or even recently just saw the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles for the first time and really enjoyed it. But I didn't, I was never hungry, I always had a roof over my head, a few friends REMINDER: Rules regarding civility and respect are enforced on this subreddit. edit 2: Multiple people have asked but I didn't do any drugs and I have had one mild head injury due to an accident in elementary school but it wasn't a concussion. I wish it didn’t happen, and I wish it was better, and I wish things were different. She hated it and went home after a few months but I stayed for two years. Being completely honest, I have some degree of guilt for being so lucky. I hated being talked over and disregarded, hated not being able to seek my own solutions to things I wanted to change in my life. Keep them close. My parents are also hoarders. Why couldn't I have gone to normal schools, and done normal fun things that kids do (at least more often)? I didn’t have a bad childhood, but my teenage years were plagued with depression, anxiety, loneliness and suicide attempts. I didn’t suppress my childhood memories, however I did decide not to I have now forgiven my parents, because they had a difficult childhood themselves. I have very vivid childhood memories (starting at age of 8 months) and, sadly, they aren’t Yes, relative to other serial killers he may have had a “normal” life, but as far as a normal childhood in relation to the average kid, he definitely did not have an average childhood. It's been bothering me a lot, and I don't understand what is happening/has happened. But he was happy when I wanted it You know what I love about this thread? The reminder of our shared human experience. I didn’t have that and it’s just another thing I feel like I’m left out on. I realized that hard work was a lot harder than just saying you can do it. . I was an only child. The issue was that we both had a lot of debt. Not in my case it’s not. You didn’t see people with phone addiction like we all have now except Blackberry users and everyone made fun of them. I didn't have an outlet for that. Childhood Trauma Is Not Always Obvious While It’s Happening. How I had no one to turn to. I always have something like this in the back of my mind. “Don’t worry, Jill. Whatever you decide man the world is your oyster go get it. He had a child who died before he met me. But they’re kindred souls. The other was his younger brother. I went through that phase after I broke away from my parents and stopped communicating with them (for the first time) in my early twenties. I think about all the ways I parent my kids so much differently than I was parented, and I wasn't even spanked (mine was all emotional/neglect)- and I realize as I'm explaining something or giving my anxious kid a tip on how to cope, how few "tools" I was given to handle life. Maybe we are missing out. The most you could say is that I was talktative and fidgety, but even as a young teenager I didn't have much trouble with executive function and always got work done on time. Hi. When I was 14 i told my best friend i was gonna marry future husband guy. My parents didn't have very happy childhoods (dad's parents were both alcoholics and my moms father was schizophrenic and her mother could not healthily deal with it), so I feel like that I mean, you can definitely be autistic without having the stereotypical toddler signs (hand flapping, rocking, not waving or pointing, delayed development, etc. My memories of childhood feel like random blurry pop-ups with no time stamp and figuring out the rough year feels like a detective job, a guess based on my circumstances at the time (eg. I'm really sorry that you childhood and teen years were taken from you. I also went to meet Like the empathy u didn't get as a kid. College was much more enjoyable. "Didn't have a childhood" meaning: Spent the whole time working, or moving, or escaping war or being caught up being so busy that you didn't have time to be a kid "Had a bad one" meaning: abused, bullied, left out etc I mean, high school sports can be a good and fun experience but most people don't give a fuck about it after high school, and those "grown men crying about how great those glory days were" are pretty pathetic. I didn't put much thought into it and life continued like normal for a few days after. 20-25 was fun. I didn't show signs of stuff like this as a child. It happened as a result of the Adverse Childhood Experiences study (ACEs) which found that childhood trauma is 1) FAR more common that had been assumed, even in relatively affluent populations, and 2) the higher the trauma "load" that I guess I just didn't want to support gender stereotypes. edit: Thought it might be important to include that I am currently in my mid-20s, but I realized that I didn't remember my childhood probably around age 20-21. Although my situation was particularly harsh, [] I asked today if she thought I could have experienced some other trauma (though I didn’t specifically mention CSA). Took college classes, met ppl, made friends & gradually increased from there socially & hanging out. You can guess who is Maybe think about it like this: before you decluttered, you didn’t actually have any of those things in your life. Later on, they’d almost always pay rent for their apartment because her boyfriend kept “quitting” jobs and needing more money. I wish my brain didn’t jump to ending it would be easier. But I have autism spectrum disorder and when I got to teenage life I spent the first few years of it trying to act more neurotypical. She started punishing my brother for my missteps because I didn’t react to my own punishments. All commenters should be trying to help and any help should be given in good faith, as if you were Even though my childhood didn’t really come with extreme abuse from my parents, I did spend much of it feeling embarrassed, stupid, or angry because adults treated everything I said like it was adorably stupid or a complete lie so I was always laughed at The next day was pretty normal and I remember taking notice that that night I didn't have one of my dreams. There has been a quiet revolution in the scientific recognition of the effects of childhood trauma on chronic illness in recent years. I've made the decision, after being diagnosed last year, that it would be an extremely bad idea for me to ever have children. Both played football. As you said the teenage stuff is cliche. Once you have the AA no one will care about your GED. ). It didn't really until I hit 40 and realized I have a shit load of childhood trauma. But don’t believe that you don’t have friends. My college best friend had a schedule conflict and didn't come to my wedding and we talk almost every day. I mean, you can definitely be autistic without having the stereotypical toddler signs (hand flapping, rocking, not waving or pointing, delayed development, etc. They are episodic and semantic memory. Reddit has abandoned the users, the moderators, and countless people who support an ecosystem built on Reddit itself. Edit: My first gold, thank you so much ️ Also if anyone is looking for guidance on healing CPTSD from abuse, I highly recommend Pete Walker's book "Complex PTSD: From Surving To Thriving". This has nothing to do with SpongeBob but when I was like 6 I was allowed to watch the Simpsons and one day I was helping my dad with something then I quoted the simpsons I don’t remember what I said but I guess it was something a 6 year old shouldn’t say and my dads like WHERE DID YOU HERE THAT FROM and I was like uhh the simpsons and he’s like YOUR I didn't invite my childhood best friend to my wedding. So in essence, I don't think I was parentified. Someday I’ll probably create some new accounts, but for now I’m just fine without it. If you have close family, they’re the best friends you got stuck with. My feelings about all of it didn’t matter, and my own struggles (as a bullied, socially anxious junior high girl who didn’t feel welcome in multiple classes) were an afterthought at best. I stopped being her friend shortly afterwards. They would have things piled up throughout the house and have pathways leading through. It just destroys me. Or check it out in the app stores This is a great question that I didn’t have an answer for until recently. My freedom was never seen before. I didn’t care if I got punished but I cared very much if he did. We went to school together - apart from that we had nothing in common. I realized she meant every mean, cruel thing she said and did. Please feel free to also include those people. I’m finding so many relics of my childhood and I just can’t help but cry. And I experienced childhood trauma. Oh, and I highly recommend the body keeps the score. Hell yeah. I still struggle with OCD, depression and anxiety. People who have been in combat, have survived abuse, or have post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can exhibit hyper vigilance". Now, I'm pretty sure different pieces of us have different memories of childhood. When my parents and teachers were given the questionnaires, I got very non-ADHD points, and since I was still doing average in school ( my grades had actually dropped considerably from being the top), I didn't "qualify" for a diagnosis. Some time later my grandma asked me why I wasn't friends with "A" anymore. ) If you have CPTSD, have studied hard and read PW, tBKTS, The Gifted Child, and could teach narcissism 101, you should be able to watch this video and hone in on the million and one issues with her entire premise and modality. He didn’t hit you like his father did to him, but still his unprocessed trauma impacted you and your sense of comfort and safety in the home. I love birthday presents probably because I didn’t get many as a child, while I watched other kids get tons of them. I had a 1. I know this seems ridiculous and people have bigger problems, but hear me out. I have childhood pictures of me physically leaning away from my mom as she went in for a hug. He didn't wanna ruin the awesome friendship we had if it didnt work out. You can guess who is this is so good. I didn’t have many friends and NEVER invited them over. It sounds like you have the more inattentive version, rather than the stereotypical hyperactive type. Life and friends are different for everyone. ghcj mvt vaipe giwpv skxic jyaafw ttmbhx tlhdswh gxfgo rajtagm

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